BOO!!!!!!

HA! SCARED YOU.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN. :)

PARTAY!!!

okay so the turnout wasn't really what we expected but the halloween party was still so much fun!!! i was trying to decide for like the longest time what i should dress up as...and then this evening i figured it out. i decided to be sydney bristow from alias!!! (i have to admit, i kind of stole the idea from kelsey, but what can i say, it was a great idea!) so i got dressed up and colored my hair blue with massive amounts of glitter...it was pretty sweet. i had so much fun. BAH!!!! i have 6 days left to prepare for pre-area auditions. but it's okay. i'll be okay. phew...glad that's out of my system.

8 days.

8 freaking days.

"come up to meet you, tell you i'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are..."

my brain is so FRIED because i haven't gotten sufficient sleep in a while and i've been reading Hamlet all day. now, don't get me wrong, i love shakespeare...but i'm not good at cramming shakespeare. i have to take my time with it, so reading 1 1/2 acts in 2 hours is just too much for me...and now i can't even think. plus my choir concert was last night. it was SO much fun, but kind of stressful. i had a good time, it was just...long. and i got home really late, and then i couldn't sleep. so anywho...it's about time for me to get back to class. more lata.

"why do seagulls fly over the sea? cause if they flew over the bay, they'd be BAGELS!!!"

"you alweady know the one about the widdle stwawbewwies?"

"Yet, if we were truly men and women of prayer, our faces set like flint and our hearts laid waste by passion, we would discard our excuses. We would be done with blaming others.
We must go out into a desert of some kind...and come into a personal experience of the awesome love of God. Then, we will nod in knowing agreement with that gifted English mystic Julian of Norwich: 'The greatest honor we can give the Almighty God is to live gladly because of the knowledge of His love.' "
--Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel

what a day it has been! and what a week! it has been long...and interesting...and i've loved it. i'm tired...but i've loved it. now......it's time for kaylah to rest. after BCIS, that is. but at the moment i'm gonna continue reading The Ragamuffin Gospel--cause, man, am i diggin this book!!!

"I love you Lord, and I life my voice
To worship You, Oh my soul rejoice
Take joy my King in what you hear
May it be a sweet, sweet sound in Your ear."

though i do love to sing...worship is so much more than singing...oh, how true that is...

"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." --Romans 12:1-2

God is amazing.

"let me know that you hear me; let me know your touch; let me know that you love me; let that be enough."

sol...sorry i didn't post this yesterday, it was kind of a long day. i had to be at flower mound high school at 8 am for my region phase 2 auditions...ack! and when i got there and registered, i discovered that i was number 34 out of 36 girls...i would have to wait all day to sing. so, we were sequestered in the auditorium, drinking lots of water and singing all of our fun choir songs from class or playing cards to entertain ourselves. i sang at like 1 something...i don't remember the time...just that i was hungry...and it went fairly well. i mean, my throat was dry, so my voice cracked a little on a note and i almost ran out of breath in one spot but i made up for it. and i was VERY pleased with my sightreading...overall i was satisfied with the audition. i didn't freak out this time.

after my audition my bro brought me lunch (ah, food!!!) and then i waited for another like 2 hours to get my results. the consensus? ......i got second chair!!!! holy cow i still can't believe i'm saying that...this is really weird and cool and OH MY GOODNESS! i totally screamed in the ear of the man posting it--he probably wasn't too pleased with that, but i think he just laughed. and then i got lots of hugs from my choir friends...it's so awesome with choir, we're all like a big family. though we're all really competitive, everyone's supportive of each other. i dig it. when my director came out we all ran at him and gave him this huge group hug...it was hilarious, i think we almost suffocated him tho. and since the directors know the results before we do, when he saw me he just got this big grin on his face and gave me a high-five. he's a great director, really. okay, so anyway, congrats to all the other gals and guys who are advancing too! i'm so excited!!!! WOOT!

"i know what you're goin through.i won't be the one that lets go of you..."

haha so that last post was ended very abruptly cause the bell rang as i was typing!!! i mean i was pretty much done but it was still funny cause i didn't exactly get to really conclude the post or anything. it was weird. but w/e. THE END!!! muahahahaha!!!

and then i found five dollars......

"who am i? just a youth? why has that become the excuse?"

my bro came home last night!!!! and in about twenty minutes or so he and my mom are coming to bring me lunch...flippin sweet!!! i'm excited. then tonight we're gonna go see Wicked in dallas. i have always enjoyed listening to the soundtrack, and i can't wait to see the show performed.

i've been practicing guitar. like, actually practicing. and it turns out...my technique sucks. building callouses is painful as heck. but you know what? it's so much fun all the same. i'm really enjoying it.

this morning was so stressful...i had a complete kaylah wig-out moment. you see, i was up late studying for an exam in english, so i didn't get much rest. then, my alarm clock decided not to wake me up on time...so i missed a vital rehearsal for choir--and we have a concert on tuesday! (which, though i am excited about it cause i have a solo and stuff, makes me sad cause i'll miss TNT again.) so anywho i totally freaked when i woke up, and again when i got to school...it took a while for me to calm down. once i convinced myself that the world was indeed not ending, i was able to go about the rest of my day, and here i am in BCIS! (oh the joy! :\ ) the end!!

HOLY FREAKING CRAP!

in explanation of the previous entry...i had region choir auditions yesterday....it was a very stressful ordeal. i spent hours waiting to audition. i missed teaching TNT. i spent hours after my audition waiting to find out the results (by the time they came, we were all delirious, singing songs about the results list...long story...). so...my room was the first to have the results posted. and....dum dum dum....i got freaking fourth chair our of my room of 36 alto 2's!!! hence the HOLY FREAKING CRAP!! so okay the chair doesn't really matter until 2nd phase but it's still really awesome and i'm really excited and really scared about 2nd phase and OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!! ack this is so exciting!!! okay so i have to go now because alex is badgering me about spending too much time blogging. apparently it's a "huge waste of time"....blech. i like it. yay blogging!!! and we get the cuts today for phase 2 of region! eek!! wish me luck!! farewell!

HOLY.

FREAKING.

CRAP.

ack!

i leave momentarily for my region choir audition. eek! i'm nervous. and excited. i dunno. well, wish me luck!!! catch y'all on the flip side...

"here am i. send me"

so i was discussing this with amanda last night...at this point i pretty much think i'll probably go one of two directions with my life: directing choirs or teaching english. both on the high school level. the thing is...
both fall in line with life-long passions that i have.
both are equally possible for me to do.
i am fairly equally skilled at both of these things (though at times i doubt my skills in both areas).
both fall in line generally with what i think i want to do: teach high-schoolers.

and the coolest part...it's not even that stressful. a little confusing, but not stressful. i just wonder at it. it's like, hey, i could do either of these amazing things which i would enjoy immensely and probably be really good at (if i continued to apply myself). or, for all i know, i could do something totally different, and enjoy it just as much and be okay at it. and God would use me for His glory in any of those situations i chose. any of them. as long as i make myself available. heck, He can use me even at times when i'm not making myself available, when i'm totally screwing up--cause that's who He is, He's sovereign. but if i make myself available, if i open my heart to His will for me...what a life that would be! (for that matter, that kind of life is available to me right now...sweeeeet...) but my point is this: the stress was never necessary. it never will be. no matter where i am, God can and will use me for His glory.

so....what now????

i go where He leads. cool.