"yay ghetto fabulous!"

in short, this week has been...short. ha. cause it feels like it hasn't even been a break. it's really been more like a weekend. and now i have like a flippin day left before i go back to cursed school...i can't stand it! oh well. i'll get over it. i just need to finish a LOT of work within the next 36 hours or so...and then i'll be home free. actually i probably have a little bit more than 36 hours on some of the work...and a little bit less on some of it. but whatever. in any case, it just feels like this break wasn't even official. until today...today felt break-y. finally. OH and by the way whoever decided to make all of the deadlines for college stuff right after thanksgiving break should seriously rethink that. cause...it makes me very unhappy. i mean...yeah...i'm sure i'll have it all in on time. but it just makes me sad that i had to use my break time to work on essays and stuff instead of...oh, i don't know...RELAXING?!?! but, hey, that's life. and i still got to hang out with my bro, and with my new puppy, during the time spent procrastinating on said essays. so okay i feel like this whole blog has been whiny. I'M REALLY HAPPY!!! despite the work and all that crap, can i just say that life is grand??? and that (and this is weird but cool) i'm not stressed about college apps???? all the "stressful" stuff is just whizzing by and all the important stuff is coming into focus. it's flippin awesome. yay life!!!!

ooh and yay christmas tree ornaments...we get new ones every year. last year mine was a My Little Pony...this year it's Frodo Baggins. I love my mom.

who's going to houston until tomorrow night????

oh! right. that's me. see ya on the flipside!!!

"i'm sorry but where i come from p and m do NOT sound the same."

so i dunno i guess i feel like i haven't really written about life in a while, just kind of been writing some dumb blogs to fill up space... life is pretty darn good if you ask me. i'm actually confused most of the time, but hey, that kind of seems of be, um, THE STORY OF MY LIFE so i'll get over it. um...i've just kind of been relaxing a lot lately. it's been really nice. i've been reading a lot. believe it or not, i hadn't read anything in a while...i hadn't found the time to. but i found the time again, and remembered how much i love to just curl up in a warm blanket with a good book, for hours at a time...it's bliss. and you know what i was thinking today? or actually i've been thinking it for a while... i'm a totally different person than i was a year ago. i mean, okay, i'm still me, but a lot has changed, for the better. for one, this is the first year in the history of EVER that i haven't been so stressed out and tired by this time in the school year that i just give up. if that sentence made any sense...basically, what i mean is i haven't given up this time. and i don't intend to...and that's a nice feeling. and i think God is making me much more aware of Himself in everything around me...from the biggest of things to the smallest, i am starting to really realize how faithful He is, and how vast He is, and...ugh. He is really stretching me, and it is the most exhilarating thing i've ever experienced. and it's like...the teeny stupid problems that used to seem huge...just don't, anymore. they actually just seem kind of amusing. and... overall... i think God is just teaching me what is truly important, you know? i dunno where i'm going with this, i'm just rambling...but, dude. i don't think i have ever felt more ready and willing to do His will. God has a plan for me...plans for a hope and a future...and i'm freaking excited. i can't wait to see where it leads.

"you said, lift up your eyes, the harvest is here, the kingdom is near"

it's almost thanksgiving...would someone please tell me how that is possible?

"any questions so far?" "yeah. can you show me what a bag looks like again?"

Your Irish Name Is...

Fiona Fitzpatrick

What's" your Irish Name?

You Are

A Robo Pumpkin Face You would make a good pumpkin cyborg.

What's" Your Pumpkin Face?

Your Musical Tastes Match: Nicole Kidman

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What Celebrity Matches Your Taste in Music?

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Lieutenant HornetYour Superpower is Waking Through WallsYour Weakness is IceYour Weapon is Your Solar DaggerYour Mode of Transportation is Pogo Stick

What's" your Superhero Name?

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy.You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.That doesn't mean you don't rock out...You just rock out with meaning.For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

have a rockin day.

"when i look at the stars i feel like myself"

this week i need to......

...clean out my car.
...finish up some applications.
...start some applications.
...finish my english homework within the next two hours, cause, yes, i DO procrastinate.
...start actually doing my homework at home again.
...talk to some people i haven't talked to in a while.
...start really learning my state music (cause, praise God, my preparation paid off at that pre-area audition...i'm going to state, baby!)
...just RELAX for a weekend. yep. that's right. no more stress...i'm gonna be chillin.

sidenote...these past few days God has shown Himself to me in so many ways...He is so freakin amazing...and i just want to praise Him constantly! i love this week!

"whatever's in front of me, i choose to sing Hallelujah"

"And surely i am with you always, even to the end of the age." --Matthew 28:20b

here i go...wish me luck tomorrow!

:)

"you can sense the tears before they fall, you see when i'm fakin it all, oh you...you know me well"

so last night i finally got some sleep...for once. hopefully this will help me not feel so worn out all day. see, all week i haven't been able to get more than 4 hours of sleep (apparently i have some unresolved issues with stress over pre-area). so, since i've been stressing, and lost sleep, i've felt terrible all week, and had no appetite, and therefore only been able to eat like one real meal a day...which probably contributes to my weak feeling, and the fact that i've lost some weight in the last week. but yesterday i was finally able to eat again, and i went to bed at around 11 pm, and just woke up around 11 am this morning. suffice to say...i feel much more rested than i have been the past couple of days. and i'm hungry...so that's a good sign.
but yeah, um, if y'all could just pray for me to have peace this week...it would be appreciated. much love...!

"...i only wanted to be strong, to be brave..."

praise God for those He put in my life who have encouraged me...i seriously don't know WHAT i would do without them.

today was good. really good. yay...:)

"you know like the plain donuts, the ones with nothing on them?...it needs chocolate and sprinkles."

"right...where are we going?"

so the countdown has begun...actually it has way past begun...for my pre-area audition. i'm stoked. and freaked. and ultimately gonna be okay. it's cool like that. (and kinda weird...but i dig it.) i have just about 2 days left to really get some solid practice in that will actually change my habits...then it's all completely out of my hands. (ha! as if it's not out of my hands already...) so, my audition? it's for my audience of One. yep. no greater purpose than His glory. so i better get to it.