so i've been packing all day, and i'm still not done. with all the stuff that's been going on, it's hard for me to believe that it was just wednesday that i was taking final exams. i feel like that was a few weeks ago. weird. anywho, i won't be blogging again after today for at least a week, more likely two weeks. see y'all later!!!! peace

i'm quite pumped about the fact that there is only 1/2 day left of my sophomore year. of course, tomorrow i have the two HARDEST exams, and today's was easy.....but oh well. i'll at least pass them, even though i wish i could do better than just passing (have i mentioned i'm somewhat of a perfectionist?? maybe that's why i always lose sleep on the nights before exams. hmmm). i'm ready to be done with exams so i can relax a bit--but only a bit, cause then i have to pack for pine cove and mexico!!!! w00t!! once i get home from that stuff, i'll relax some more. i'll have some days when i'll wake up extra late, and some days when i'll wake up early to see the sunrise and drink some coffee. the best part about that is, i won't have a set schedule!!! man, as much as i hate texas summers, i love summer break!!!
i'm off to bed now!!!! everyone do well on your exams!!!!

i almost made it through senior speeches without crying. well, technically, i did--i waited to cry until after the speeches were done and i went up to give each of the girls a hug. but i did better than i expected....i thought i would be a blubbering idiot. fortunately i wasn't. the tear-fest will be saved until i have one-on-one talks with some of the senior girls.
but on a lighter note.....i decided not to go see Troy on saturday--i was too tired. i've also made some other decisions.....i'm not going to take the PSAT TEAM class like i originally planned. i will study on my own and i'll still take the test, but the stress of that class would be a bit too much for me right now. so instead i'm putting physics pre-ap back into my schedule and dropping PSAT and health--i'll take health senior year. at first i was kind of scared about this decision to change everything at the last minute like this. but i'm beginning to think it's a good idea, at least for me. it'll actually be a relief to get out of that class.
anywho...i'm outta here. sleepy-time!!! :)

praise God that He has given me peace recently. i've been having some trouble with stress lately, related to school and other things as well. for a while i was really struggling, but then i just sat down and asked God to give me peace and to help me focus on Him....and He has. bigtime.
about a month ago i posted a few versesthat had been affecting my life lately. but in the past week or two, one of those particular verses has constantly stood out clear in my mind--Jeremiah 29:11-13. a month ago it had little meaning in my life compared to now. a few of you know why it is so important to me right now; most don't. basically i haven't been trusting enough in God and in that He does indeed have a plan for my life. but that is changing, and i find myself much more joyful and peaceful than before.
it's been a good day. :)

so, we had our Fine Arts Banquet last night. i didn't get home till like 12:05 or something like that. so basically i'm not exactly too awake right now. but that's okay. ooh and i actually got an award, as did many of my friends. some of my senior friends got scholarships--that was cool. oh, and congrats to Nurge for getting multiple awards--he got at least 3 i think, but one was outstanding junior choir person...member.....whatever. so, yeah, big "STEIN AUF!!" for that. also, after school today Mr. Shirah posted the choirs for next year (as in, who made what choir). so, of course i went to see. and of course many of my friends made the mixed choir!! i'm so proud of them all. they rock. actually, i got the unique experience of sitting in on all the auditions for my class period, because i accompanied everyone on their audition piece. that was cool, and i must say that everyone did very, very well, despite how badly some of them think they did. if only those girls could listen to how they sang at the beginning of the year and how they sang in auditions....there is a huge difference. they've all improved a lot.
anywho, tonight we're having our sophomore girls' sleepover, and i'll be going on only 4 hours of sleep and absolutely no caffeine whatsoever, since my doctor told me not to drink caffeine anymore. then tomorrow i get to pack for Pine Cove and Mexico, and then some of the people from my english class (including the teacher) are going to see Troy. not sure if i'm going yet, but i might. then, of course, senior speeches are on sunday. dang it, i'm gonna be a wreck.
anyways....hey, did i mention there are 2 1/2 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!!! i'm totally pumped. no seriously. for real. well, i'm out for today. toodles!!

well, Bye Bye Birdie is now officially over. it's good, because it means i don't have to have all of the songs stuck in my head any more, but it's also sad. for a lot of the actors, this was their last musical at Marcus. so i guess i'm just relieved and sad at the same time. interesting how that works, huh?

it's so odd to think that i'm already at the last week of school. though it seemed to take forever getting through the year, as i look back on everything it seems like i was just starting off the year a matter of days ago. and now i sit here preparing for the final bit of learning i have to do before we take the exams. how interesting that one year can seem so long, and yet we find that, once we near the end of it, we don't have enough time to finish everything.....................

so, i went to see the talent show at Briarhill Middle School tonight--it was pretty cool!! there were two kids jammin' on the drums. they were awesome. there were quite a few good singers and dancers too. still, i think the drums had to be just about the coolest thing there. and i also got to hang out with some of my Briarhill friends during the show (you guys rock my face off!!!). my bro just got home, so i'm off to hang out with him!!! laters

well, one weekend of Bye Bye Birdie is done, and one remains. one exciting thing is the two or three class periods i'll miss for it on thursday(i'll miss 2nd per. to be a part of it, then my 3rd per. class is going to watch it, and i dunno about 1st per. yet). also, i would just like to announce that there are 12 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!!! haha i love this whole countdown thing.
ryan's coming home on thurs. or fri.!!!! just one more thing for me to be happy about. and he might come see the musical, so that'll be fun. anywho i hope you all have a good evening and GET SOME SLEEP!!! cause i don't get that luxury!!!! g-night everyone!!

i'm in a really good mood right now!!! despite how late it is, i'm wide awake. i just learned how to play twenty four by switchfoot on my guitar, and i'm PUMPED!!! granted, i'm not that experienced with guitar and compared to switchfoot i probly sound like crap, but to me it's cool!!! i'm SO EXCITED!!! yay. now all i have to do is make it sound good enough to play it for other people.....hmmm.......

ugh, what a hectic day!!! i crashed on the couch as soon as i walked in the door from school, and my mom just let me sleep. she didn't wake me up to tell me what time it was, just let me sleep and miss bible study. i know i needed the sleep, but i'm sad to miss our bible study. but, hey, it's almost the weekend, and i only have 15 school days left!!!! that's always exciting. (lol my english teacher has been counting down the days for over a month now). and also i've taken care of all the crap fixing my schedule for next year and whatnot, so no more of that to worry about. it's just a matter of caring about my grades enough for the last 15 days so that i don't let my grades drop. stupid grades......honestly, who does their best when we know the year is almost over and we're stinkin' tired from all that we've done so far?? still, i suppose i could at least TRY to maintain my grades (lol). speaking of which, i'm gonna go study for my test tomorrow!! wish me luck!!!

"Then I ask, Have you ever felt abandoned?
Felt so lost that you were stranded,
Just like all the walls were closin' in,
And you were left inside?
Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?
Stuck under a tree in thunder,
There seems to be no way out,
But there is one when in doubt."

so....pine cove rocked. i had much fun, and i still managed to get homework done in the process. greatness. granted, i still have to finish that project which i began over the weekend--but i've still got until wednesday to do that. anywho, i got home at about 10:15 tonight cause i had dress rehearsal for Bye Bye Birdie--and it was the only rehearsal that i will get to attend. i'll be busy tuesday and wednesday, and then thursday night is our first show. it'll be fun, but i have to admit that i didn't exactly appreciate the six hour rehearsal today. oh well. now i get to sleep. at least, i get to sleep after my homework is done. and after i do my homework i'll probably read for an hour or so, depending on how soon i drift off to sleep. so basically i guess what i'm tryin to say is that i'll get no more than four or so hours of sleep tonight. meanwhile, though, i'm in a cheerful mood, and i'm gonna try to stick to that despite my lack of sleep. and on that note, i'm out!! see you all later!! (oh, and hey, everyone come and see Bye Bye Birdie and support Marcus Fine Arts!!! lol)