how about i try this one again, eh?

i've been tired lately. and you know what? i'm tired OF it. i've gotten out of shape. i haven't been sleeping much. my eating habits have gotten a little too relaxed, which is expecially not good considering certain conditions i have with insulin. (no, i'm not diabetic. i just have a lot of random diseases. fun stuff, right? right.)
so i'm changing it. i've even got a plan for how i'm going to start living healthy again...cause somewhere it just seems that i got off track a little too much. about a year ago i finally got the motivation to lead a healthy lifestyle. when i got to school this year for some reason that lifestyle went down the drain.
well NO MORE.
it's not about the losing weight...i just want to be healthy. i want to be in shape. i want to be able to run and bike long distances. i don't want to be in fear of developing diabetes when i'm 40, and i don't want to feel ill after eating because i had a little too much of my simple sugars.
i'm done with being stupid. i'm changing it...it's going to be tough, but i'm changing it.

i'm sorry, i just really needed to say that aloud. maybe just so that i could have someone to hold me accountable for it. please...hold me accountable for it.