a group of my friends from home are going to a place i love very much for a service weekend this friday thru sunday. i've been trying to figure out for weeks how i might be able to go with them because, you see, i LOVE these service weekends. and i love pine cove. and i love my friends. so basically all in all it would be like the most amazing weekend ever.
but when it comes down to it...as much as it sucks to admit...i just can't afford to spend another weekend away. i need to be here--i need to practice and do the small amount of homework that i didn't already finish, and then i just need to...spend time relaxing HERE. with the friends i have HERE. as much as i love home and the friends there, and as much as i love pine cove, i really need to get used to being here. i'll be here for a long time yet. and i really do love it here. i think sometimes it's just "easier" to go back to the familiar. but then it makes it that much more difficult when i get back here to readjust and get things done. so i need to be here. in Huntsville.
i'll still be a little jealous, i have to admit, of the amazing work my friends get to do at PC. but who's to say i can't serve the Lord right here where i am, right now? yes...pray that i may learn how to serve more willingly WHERE I AM.

more later...need sleep. :)