"trace the shape of my heart till it becomes more familiar to Your eyes."

this is a journal entry from last summer...near the end of the Holland trip, actually. i read through it today and was just like...i should post this. so anyway, this is what was on my mind that day:

7.27.06 4:20 pm Dallas Time
Truly...what if the people of God actually trusted Him? if we actually laid down our worries-laid down our very LIVES-for Christ's sake? what if we all did? or even just a few? how would that look? how would it change the world we live in? because i am convinced that the world would be changed by it. God changes us inside out-starts in our hearts and then creates a revolution through our lives. i want my life to be a HUGE revolution in which brothers and sisters growing around me gladly join.
in my life i want to see the body of Christ live more like the body of Christ. living unified, living abundantly, living in love. i want to see us grow in that. i know it will not be perfected or complete until God's grace is made complete at the end of the age. but we can choose now to live as a more unified and loving body for Christ. at least moreso than we have been. that love is the love we are to be KNOWN by! so let us walk in it! that way those who are not in Christ will see it and want what we have. i firmly believe that. because, especially here, i have seen it. people have recognized, of all things, HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER. they SEE it. it matters. let our choice always be love, because we love God.
"As they were leaving Jericho, a large crowd followed Him. And two blind men sitting by the road, hearing that Jesus was passing by, cried out, 'Lord, have mercy on us, Son of David!' The crowd sternly told them to be quiet, but they cried out all the more, 'Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!' And Jesus stopped and called them, and said, 'What do you want me to do for you?' They said to Him, 'Lord, we want out eyes to be opened.' Moved with compassion, Jesus touched their eyes; and immediately they regained their sight and followed Him." --Matthew 20:29-34
the blind men whose eyes were healed didn't just leave it at that. the healing wasn't the end of the story. after they regained their sight, they followed Christ.