there is a long story behind the questions in my previous blog--i'll spare you the high school drama. basically, i have a group of friends who have not been geniune towards me, haven't held each other accountable, etc., and it affected my walk for a long time because i had very little encouragement and virtually no one holding me accountable. it has caused tears, and not just for myself. i have grown weary of the situation. i guess that's really the essentials of the story.